*sigh*

I am not in a good place.  Life has lost all joy.  My body is the biggest and the sickest it's ever been.  I have less than a handful of people I think I can talk to, but I don't.  I don't think they'd judge me, but I am also so ashamed of what I've become.

I can barely walk from my car to my doctor's appointments.  And since I have these wounds on my calves, I have appointments twice a week for the foreseeable future.  I also have two yearly exams scheduled this week.

I'm going to give ketovore another shot.  I know it works.  I have to kick my sugar addiction.  It is literally killing me.